The Wrong Way Home (Kate O'Shaughnessy)

 

It's so weird how themes show up in my reading. I got this book out of the library at the beginning of summer. I think it was because it was a Newberry Honor Award winner. I didn't read it right away, let it auto-renew. The last book I read was Cultish - and then I picked this one up....about a young girl who has escaped from a cult. 

I thought it was well written. I loved the metaphors: They go to a place called the Lighthouse Motel - a lighthouse, a place that helps guide ships away from the dangerous shore. She's being guided along but doesn't necessarily buy into her mom's decisions - instead, wants to return to the cult. The whole story is a race between her figuring out how to get in touch with the cult leader to try to return and realizing the truth of the situation. 

She does come to a slow realization of important things she has missed out on while being away from society for six years. She is really behind in school, doesn't know some of the foundational concepts that are regularly talked about, doesn't know about modern medicine, has never been around anyone different than herself (her mom's godmother is gay and has lost her wife and the librarian she meets in gender neutral). Some of the reviews I read were upset that there were gay and gender neutral characters in the book. I thought the author did a pretty good job of including some of the things she would have never been exposed to. 

I really enjoyed this read. I think it would be more appropriate for middle school. Cults are a big topic for anyone younger. I think it would be interesting to see what kids think of the mother not being totally upfront with her daughter about all the issues around why they left.

Notes:

p. 11: Standard cult leader talk (discipline then love bomb): You have so much potential, Fern. Do you know that? It's deep inside, but it's there. You walk through the world so small, shoulders rounded, eyes down. That's why I was hard on your before. With your sweater. Because you're like me. I can see it. Inside you're strong. Destined for greatness. You have a quiet strength, a quiet power. We just need to break the shell. 

p. 82 Just like most kids, Fern isn't fazed at all that Birdie and Babs are a gay couple: She and her wife, Birdie, were my godparents." Mom pauses for a moment. "Well, are my godparents. At least Babs still is. Birdie passed away a while ago."

"Oh," I say. I try to take in all this new information. "What's a godparent?"

p. 193 Fern is confused by the librarian's appearance:
But now that I'm standing closer, I'm not actually sure if Wren is a she or a he. I mean to ask for some book suggestions, but instead a different question slips out.

"Sorry, are you a girl or a boy?"

The librarian - Wren - raises an eyebrow. The left one. The one with two silver hoops threaded through it. "And how, pray tell, is that any of your business?"

The librarian is angry. Or annoyed. It must have been a rude question. On the Ranch, there are more women than men, and all the women keep their hair long and the men grow out their beards, so it's easy to tell everyone apart, even when they wear the same kind of clothes. That's the way Dr. Ben likes it. The rules are so different out here.
"I'm sorry. I'm ignorant," I say, using Havana's word. "It means I don't know a lot of things."
The librarian's face softens. "Hey, it's okay. Neither do a lot of people."
And then Wren goes on to explain they go by "they", not "he" or "she". That is a gender-neutral pronoun because they identify as gender-fluid. "There are two boxes society tries to put you in when it comes to gender, and I don't fit in either one. A lot of people don't."
I'm surprised we haven't heard more about this on the Ranch. Dr. Ben is always telling us we should write our own rules, especially when it comes to thinks society tells us.
"I didn't know you could do that," I say. "It makes a lot of sense. Thank you for explaining it to me."
That seems to be the right thing to say, because now Wren is grinning at me. "It's funny. Kids seem to grasp this concept a lot faster than adults....."

Later in the book Birdie and Wren are mentioned again to say that they're dating.

p. 220 Metaphor of home:  Fern and Eddie are trying to prove that the ghost, The Spirit of the Sea, doesn't exist. One night they see it though.  Fern is quite convinced by what she sees that maybe the ghost IS real, however, Eddie, who has more experience in the world, rejects that this could be real. She hypothesizes that it is someone playing a trick:

Looking with my naked eye from down here, on the beach, all I can see if that bobbing, wavering light. It flickers in and out. I imagine hundreds of years of sailors, lost at sea. I think of Birdie. And I like the idea that there will always be someone - a ghost of someone = beckoning them home no matter how far they've drifted.

p. 223 I know Eddie and I are trying to prove the opposite- that the Spirit of the Sea is a big fake, an imposter.

But I'm exactly like those people the article is talking about. All I want is to find my way back to the people I love.

I wish there was a light for me in the darkness. Held up by someone who wanted to help me. A light to guide me home.

Goodreads says:

Twelve-year-old Fern believes she's living a noble life--but what if everything she's been told is a lie?

Fern’s lived at the Ranch, an off-the-grid, sustainable community in upstate New York, since she was six. The work is hard, but Fern admires the Ranch's leader, Dr. Ben. So when Fern’s mother sneaks them away in the middle of the night and says Dr. Ben is dangerous, Fern doesn't believe it. She wants desperately to go back, but her mom just keeps driving.

Suddenly Fern is thrust into the treacherous, toxic, outside world. At first she thinks only about how to get home. She has a plan, but it will take time. As that time goes by, though, Fern realizes there are things she will miss from this place—the library, a friend from school, the ocean—and there are things she learned at the Ranch that are just...not true.

Now Fern will have to decide. How much is she willing to give up to return to the Ranch? Should she trust Dr. Ben’s vision for her life? Or listen to the growing feeling that she can live by her own rules?